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[Feb. 19th, 2007|01:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | how to lose a guy in ten days | ] |
so its a new day and a new morning.... Alex seems kinda out of it.... first he was angry this morning and now he is just.... blah... and I kinda feel helpless because its like theres nothing I can do to help. I was kinda quiet and staring out this morning.... last night falling asleep seemed distant.... I don't know what to do... I guess I want to loved.... to have a security that he used to give me when he wasn't talking to janelle.... when compassionatly say I love you.... like when he called the other night drunk... the only probablem with the message was he doesn't even remember it so its like it doesn't count.... I'm just paranoid that there is talking going on behind my back.... I'm crazy and psycho but oh well.... the only thing I can do right now, is try and support Alex the best I can and hope for a positve turnout when this is all over.... bah I feel like I spent the night up here for no reason... so I don't know why he asked me to stay.... maybe its that all I can do is be here for him and whether he needs me to be or not he will know I'm right here... out to the store.... |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2005|12:17 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mt girl kelly | ] |
Life is wonderful
because im emily elizabeth linder
and i have awesome friends whom i love
and a wonderful boyfriend who treats me as good as gold
and these kick ass friends who rock my world
Genty's spending the night and were bonding
shes also typing this w/omy knowlage
this is her 3rd time spending the night at my house
but its really her 2nd bc one time she didnt actually stay at my house but she said she did but she really slept down the street bc were rebels like that
seussical tomorrow and were phsyced
about the free pizzia for cast,crew, and pit
im out
peace |
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| HELP WANTED! |
[Sep. 1st, 2005|09:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  desperate | ] |
| [ | music |
| | HELP - Beatles | ] |
OK PEOPLE!!!! STEPHEN ADDIE CECE AND I ARE GOING TO HAVE A CLEANING THEN RELAXING PARTY AT MY NEIGHBORS
I DON'T HAVE A WHOLE LOT LEFT TO DO SO WHEN WE FINISH WE WILL HOPEFULLY BE SOON I CAN ORDER US SOME PIZZA THEN CHILL IN THE HOT TUB!!!!!!!
STARTS AT 6:00ISH.... I'LL CALL EVERYONE...
ANY MORE VOLUNTEERS? |
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[Jun. 27th, 2005|08:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
mmm feeling a tad bit sick.... might have caught the flu from stephen....
FEEL BETTER $TEPHEN!
-3m |
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[Apr. 26th, 2005|11:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  torn | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mr Brightside- the killers | ] |
you lost, you lied........ whatever
its just to hard to live. |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2005|08:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tommy Album- The Who.... alll 75 min and 13 secs. | ] |
I haven't updated in awhile... been quite busy.... a lot had happened.... as of right now... I just can't describe how I feel..... I'm in a state of question... I'm kinda... down.... not really but yet I am.. but yet I'm so just content and happpy.... its weird.... so much runs through my mind... school, theatre, friends, my best friend.... goodness its all just a lot.......
man Big river sucks... like everyone says acting,singing, scenery, effects are all amazing... but the show and story is just boring.. and its... big river.. blehhhhh
anyway I am gonna go finish listening to The Who
*Em |
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| do yoga? |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|04:49 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bounce off the walls - Sugarcult | ] |
GARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ok my mom needs to stay the fuck out of her business!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry, but this is my life and my choices and my school... not her... my life is mine.. not hers... so I am gonna choose the things I want to do... so she can fuck herself and but the hell out of my life! I understand that she is my "mom" and family and all that hockey but your "family" only has to be a small part of your life.. and I want her to barely a part of my life... for all I care I wish she wasn't a part of my life.... why do I put myself through this..........?
Em
Ask me what i want to be
And i will say i will be me
Nothing more and nothing less today and yesterday you'll see
Nothing changes in my world
Im just looking for a thrill
Why does everybody have to be somebody
And ill be on my way
And im on my way to getting nowhere
Follow me
Because where i go i'll go forever
You can come to if you want to
I'll mess you up too if you dare
On my way
And im on my way to getting nowhere
I go to work get out of bed
Put a bullet through my head
Cause i would rather be a garbage man ya understand
And count the money i dont make
As i make my next mistake
Tell your dad i got my future planed
Im in a band
And ill be on my way
And im on my way to getting nowhere
Follow me
Because where i go i'll go forever
You can come to if you want to
I'll mess you up too if you dare
On my way
And im on my way to getting nowhere
Lets go !!!
So your going nowhere
But if you hate it when you get there
Theres more to life your life moves fast
The breath you take might be your last
On my way
And im on my way to getting nowhere
Follow me
Because where i go i'll go forever
You can come to if you want to
I'll mess you up too if you dare
On my way
Im on my way to getting nowhere
do these lyrics speak to anyone? |
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| not much more to say.... |
[Feb. 4th, 2005|11:20 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  supressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Trouble Breathing- Alkaline Tri | ] |
well.. I don't know feel like explaining right now but this is a clue.... ::screams at top of lungs into the night air::
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
enough said?
--Emily-- |
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| day 7 |
[Feb. 3rd, 2005|03:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | acoustic #3- Goo Goo Dolls | ] |
............. I couldn't bare the thought of leaving my friends here behind... but I can't stand the thought of living here one more day.... life isn't supposed to be like this... each day, some point a cryin... running away.. alone.... goodness gracious... look at me... look at my life.. listen... what did I do deserve all tihs shit... worse part is I've got it better than a lot of kids do.. but at the same time I can complain.. and its horrible.. all of this is horrible... its not even 4.... I can already tell you I have cried at least once today... probably to be followed by more tears soon... and I always get to the point... where it is just soo much easier to give up then try.... and I'm holding on by a string.. and that string... is breaking.. and its about to just snap... |
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| come take me away... |
[Jan. 31st, 2005|09:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I'm still here- Goo Goo Dolls | ] |
everything pressed me this afternoon.... all hit..... reality, smack in the face......
I want to get out of my house, I'm lashing out.. harsh.. and if I am even bothered by my mom in the slightest way.... its gonna push me over the edge... and I'm going to get really angry... and the outcome... is gonna be bad.... reallllllll bad..... I need a mad amount of cash... I need a car... and I need out the second I am 18.... like I need to make out a schedule and every free afternoon I have... work... thats gonna hurt my social life... but I may not have a social life, if I don't get out as soon as I can....
I'm all frustrated and built up in anger and emotion I can't release it.... I needed to let loose all my energy.... so I started playing DDR.. played for about 2 hours... and then I just was still just as frustrated.. if not more... so I put on my shoes... and bolted out the door.. and ran... hard... as fast as I could.. and its always a reaction when your kind of tired.. to stop.. but then in my mind.. I was saying... why stop? keep going.. and so I kept going. kept running hard... and I ran... and you guessed it I ran to bhs.. went to the stairs... stared out the sky..... our infinate galaxy, reaching far beyong our comprehension.. and I just talked in my mind to God.. asked him questions, waited for answers... and the whole time was like breathless... breathtaking.. and so I called stephen... no one answered. so I left a message... then I got up bolted... but not home.... towards woodcrest and past woodcrest... and I asked myself what am I doing with my life? called peytons cell.. got the answering machine... called Gentry... she went to the basketball game... and then I called stephen back.. his mom told me he was restricted from the phone tongiht, but tomorrow he would be off... man, its like I said...your friends are gonna be there the best they can, but they can't always be...
started going home.. made some choices... and I need some help, some care, and some thought and prayer..
I need to talk to someone right now.... but that isn't exactly possible....
I'm so pressed right now.. like I feel like I myself am caving in..and breaking.. and can't hang on much longer.. I don't like whats going on.. I don't know what is wrong but its just all not feeling right.... it has me shaking... shooken up inside.... I just want to break out and fly.... I want to freefall or go skydiving... that sounds so random but I wanna feel free... open.....
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be
And I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don't feel
Want to hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones they stay the same
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here.....
Emily E. |
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| thought of my dayl- :: I'm not happy... I.. feel.. sad... maybe?:: |
[Jan. 30th, 2005|07:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Let Go- Frou Frou | ] |
bah this weekened.. went nothing like I wanted it to....
it all went to crap starting Thursday.... cause I got stephen in trouble.. and still feel really bad about it.. I mean I got him grounded from computer, phone, and friends.. and his cell got taken away... and its because of me....
then Friday.. well I had to babysit... and that got kinda annoying cause I mean... two 7th grade boys... who act so damn immature I was about to kill.. or as I said to Annie Friday night.. I would take away their manhood.... meh... then Ginny was really like hyper and jumping on my back and stomach... my boobs... ow.. pain... and then my neck.. my neck hurts.... a lot...
then sat. morning I woke up at 9:30.. even though I didn't have to be at work until 12... but no people in my house can't stay out of their business and are all worried I am gonna be late or what have you... but you know what! thats my fucking responsibility.... anyway... went into work.. which was busy as shit... and you know what.. of course when I am bagging.. since all the registers were taken... EVERYONE WANTED TO GET FUCKING PAPER!!!!!! THEN WHEN THEY FIND OUT THE PAPER BAGS DON"T HAVE HANDALS THEY WANT ME TO REBAG THEM IN PLASTIC.... arg. not to mention paper bags also take like 20min longer to bag... and I'm short so it made it more difficult.. and then yeah I was really sore.. and then when I things slowed down... and I was on register I got the people who bought a lotta wierd veggies!!! and Annies dad was one of them heh... anyway.. to sum the thought up about work.. lets see.. its sunday.. like everythings all melted and shit... so no.. eveyone didn't need to freak out and come buy 6months worth of food..... then Sat... just didn't go at all the way I wanted it to... nope... just... buh... I have trouble putting things in the past...... just... ::sighs:: this weekened sucked....
anyway... sunday... my mom annoyed the crap out of me.. and she is just pushing my last buttons... and I'm about to lash out... and I can't even stay being in the house.. cause she is in it... and just the pure sight of her... the thoughts break me down.... and I just can't escape.. and she just won't leave me alone... just leave me alone... and she is just pushing me to the point where I am gonna lose and lash out and then do something really stupid and flip over nothing....
seize the moment
don't let me walk away
pull me back into your arms
make me look into your eyes
hold me
*em |
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[Jan. 24th, 2005|08:41 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  so borer we a becoming amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 99 red balloons... what its my cell phone ringtone | ] |
even though my mind is like still stuck on thoughts of yesterday.... I'm at sams house and we just got some really random phrases and thoughts going on we thought we should share with you........sooo..........
ok so we are soo bored we just had a bunch a bunch of ppl call my cell phone.. ok and we just watched my cell phone dance....
::thought:: I wonder what Jessica Simpson is doing right at the very movement
statement from sam: the coolest thing I have ever seen is autumn's eyelash have spasms
me: I can't wait til 9 so I can use autumns cell phone to call my phone to watch it dance.. even though I could use sams cell
idea: why would you go down to lows PAY for sand when you can drive down to the beach and get to see the kickass ocean and take their sand for free.... or can you take the sand... can you get in trouble for taking sand from the beach.. who would stop u?..
........ you have no idea how stupid we sound right now talking about moving sand to different beaches and how the people would notice its not the native sand... HOLY SHIT WE ARE TALKING ABOUT SAND HOW BORED COULD WE POSSIBLY GET!!!!!
6 MINS TILL MY PHONE WILL DANCE!!!!!!!!!!
ok so we are gonna have a contest and autumn is gonna have her cell phone and sam is gonna have hers and when I say go they are gonna dial my number first.... we gonna play lik best 6 out of 10.. I'll post each result......
ok sam has just informed me you shed about 100 strands of hair a day.. thats a lot.... THATS LIKE A BOLD SPOT.... like how could your hair get soo long thats like 700 strands of hair per week........
ok.. they have their cells phones and the game begins....
round 1... sammy
round 2... auddy
round 3... hold up we have a false start for sammy....
reround 3... Auddy
round 4... Sammy
round 5... false starts on both sam and auddy
reround 5... ANOTHER FALSE START FOR BOTH SAM AND AUTUMN
rereround 5... Auddy
round 6... sammy
and after the first six rounds we have a tie sammy and auddy each with 3.. lets continue bloody war...
round 7...sammy... man you should have seen that one they both missed the buttons.. it was pandamodium...
round 8... auddy .... this is one close game....
round 9... auddy
and the final round.... sammy can tie with autumn.... or autumn can take home the big... cell phone bill.. can we all please take a moment of silence.....
round.... 10.... ITS SAMMY WITH THE TIE!!! WE MUST GO INTO CELLULAR DEATHMATCH ROUND 11!!! THIS WILL DETERMINE THE BETTER SERVICE PROVIDER.... will it be ALLTELL AUDDY OR SUNCOM SAMMY!!!!!
death match.... round 11... the antennas are up... the thumbs are erect ready to press call... and ITS ALLTELL AUDDY!! man I was sweatin bullets...
well that was a good entertaing 19 minutes... I'm out peace dawgs
*thoughts running through my head unchanged*
Em |
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| its too selfish its too much and its all not worth trying for or enough |
[Jan. 23rd, 2005|11:29 pm] |
I'm leaving here tonight.
if I closed my eyes now laying here on the ice cold ground
would I wake to see tomorrow
how many pills to kill me
how many screams for you to take me away
why didn't that car hit me
why cant it all just end now because I don't want to keep trying |
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| I want a cheesy! |
[Jan. 17th, 2005|07:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  my wrist hurts and I want a back massage....... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Voices of Truth- Casting Crowns | ] |
I remember when I used to update a lot... but I don't very much............ I'm like sooooooo busy
but I just started Kroger this weekened... how about everyone come visit me lol! or not.............. yeah sat... 9:30-2.......... :)
I have like fractured or something my wrist.. ow
I don't want to take exams tomorrow
I hope we get snow days and exams get canceled this week... that would be like............... BAAAAAAAAAAAZING!
hah
*Em |
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| I HATE EXAMS! |
[Jan. 12th, 2005|10:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | stressed........ARGGLGHESLKJTG | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Getting into you- Relient K | ] |
welll quick update....
things I have concluded:
Annie updates.... a lot.... repetatively......
Math sucks
exams reallly suck
and I can't wait til these exams and this 6 weeks is over...
I'm soo stressed... SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCHO A LOT ON MY MIND... and yet... I feel I have to keep it all to myself.... so its just alll building up............
errrrrrrrrrrrrrr stressed out baby!
*Em |
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| COMMMMMMMMMMMMMENTS ANYBODY!? |
[Jan. 6th, 2005|04:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego- Rockapella | ] |
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLO EVERYBODY!!! GUESS WHAT I AM ALIVE AND I UPDATED... DAYS AGO.... IT WAS HAPPY.... AND NO ONE CARED TO COMMENT TO JUST BE LIKE .... hey... no! WHY? BECAUSE YOU ALL SUCK AT LIFE!!!
and to brighten my day I go to read some LJs... and I see stephens.... with 19 comments... about ninjas...
yeah sam and I are going to be cooler than ninjas....
ok so I have easy mac.... but its no ordinary easy mac.... its EASY MAC BIG PACS!!!!!!!! 50% MORE FOOD PER PACK!!!!!! that like..... 50% MORE!!! WHOAH!
ok yesterday.. I ate 3 chessiesssssssssssss and 1 bowl.............. and thats a lotttttta food... so sam stephen whos gonna win the eating contest? welll of course me duh I'm glad you agree
ok I got this tank top... and the color is called sunkiss orange..... so whenever I wear it everyone has to kiss me! I demand and declare it!! so who wants to kiss me first!!!!
dooo dooo doo..... I'm bored.....
sooooooooo I guess I am out for now... tis sad but you can call me.....
reallly
like all you have to do is pick up the phone and dial 386-5635.... and be like EMILY!
and I'll be like HEY PERSON! I LOVER YOU!
♥♥♥Emily♥♥♥ |
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| NO EVERYBODY I AM NOT DEAD I WAS JUST IN ACOMMA |
[Jan. 3rd, 2005|10:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  not satisfied, not content, but better than I have been in a long time | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Open Skies- | ] |
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!! Yes I realize the new year was like 2 days ago but it kinda wasn't for me! Well this is a new year and after all that has happened to me this past weekened tonight was just all made better! After everything I dealt with and just EVERYTHING..... Its all ok because God is with me. and I know that.... I've always known that but its almost like I felt him there tonight.
Hey guess what! I have nothing to be ashamed of this is a new year, its going to be a good year. everything is the past.
My Dear Friends I don't think I would be here without you, I don't know how to thank you so much for putting up with all my shit, and everything! this year, no more cutting my wrist, no more not eating, not this year, not ever again I PROMISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nothing is perfect right now, nothing is ever perfect.... sometimes things might feel perfect... but they don't right now.... I'm dealing with a lot.... but everything will be ok because I got my friends, I got God, and God would never put me or any of you through anything you couldn't handle it might be harsh and it might be hard, but hes there and you've gotta be thankful for all the bad, because it wouldn't make the good things worth while!
I'm here for anyone who calls my cell! Its always on and I always wake up to it so give it a ring if your need!
" I can do EVERYTHING by the power of Christ. He gives me strength" -- Philippians 4:13
♥Em
Praise Him under open skies
Everything breathing praising God
In the company of all who love the King
I will dance, I will sing
It could be heavenly
Turn the music loud,
lift my voice and shout
From where I am
From where I've been
He's been there with me
He's built a monument
His very people
So let his people
Sing, sing, sing
And it's so wonderful
Just to be here now
Praise Him under open skies
Everything breathing praising God
In the company
Of all who love the King
Praise Him under open skies
Everything breathing praising God
In the company of all who love the King
Let us dance, let us sing
It could be heavenly
Turn the music loud and sing
Lift your voice to heaven
Lift up your head and sing
To the One who gave his love
This is our offering
Lift your voice to heaven
Lift up your head and sing
To the One who gave His son
Here our lives we bring
From wherever you are
Wherever you've been
He's been there
So let his people sing
And it's so wonderful to be here now
Wherever you are wherever you've been
He's been there |
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| deep breaths |
[Dec. 23rd, 2004|11:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  horny | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I don't wanna miss a thing- Aerosmith | ] |
quick update.......
facial masks and makeup-- $20+
Manicure Pedicure etc -- $55
Hair- $27
14 plain cheesie westerns and a Dr. Pepper to go-- $32.39
the total amounth spent all together on my friends christmas gifts- at least well over 130$
The enjoyment of giving those gifts, having a great time, feelings abliss -- Priceless ^_^
its always better to give than to recieve, hope everyone had an awesome hope everyone loves their christmas gifts, I tried my best. Not going into to much details right now because I am just like... whoah right now!
dear friends I need to talk to everyone of you, a night to ourselves before the new year, I want the next year to be a good one!
many thoughts on mind
burdens in my heart
soon to hope be lifted
and make a new start
*Em |
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[Dec. 19th, 2004|10:31 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | broken down | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Gethsemane- Nightwish | ] |
Thats it, Fuck it, I give up the world fucking wins!
ok yesterday, show was alright, went well didn't really have any problems best thing though was I learned to tie a noose.... and the second the show was over we hung the nutcracker in a 13 coiled noose..... which is illegal... 13 coils..... damn nutcracker....
then we learned that we are fucking going to strike everything today..... well hot dog.. so we start around 4:30.... and we rip up cords and shit etc. blah the only semi fun thing was alll the snow that was in the thing we dumped in alll out on the floor and I was covored in it.... yep I sure was.... which eventually got reallly annoying..............::coughbriancough:: really annoying.......
yummy we took break at 5:30 and ate pizza and brownies and candy etc. well then after I left at 6:30 to go babysit katie and logan... joyous fun that was let me tell you, I made speghetto with cut up hot dogs in it. and uh then we watched tv. then logan and I went downstairs watched how the grinch stole christmas (cartoon version)... and the movie that is on it at the end.. then we went upstairs tv.... we watch the night before christmas..... in which it has nutcracker music in it... in which I almost would have shot the tv. cept it wasn't mine...... then brain called, devin/ryan/nick called... that was pretty weird.... wynn stopped by to pick up stephens guitar and such.... ummm then I was molested by katie and logan then uh we made popcorn... that was an experience.... yeah then by 11.. I made them go upstairs and get their pjs on and brush their teeth.... then we went downstairs and played hairdresser with my hair.... wow I think I lost a lotta hair from logan and katie brushing it....ow.. then I got them into bed.. and chilled for about half an hour then parental units got home and mcClurg took me home....
it was an exhausting day..... so I told my mom I was going to sleep in tomorrow.... and I knew somehow ppl would wake me up someway.. so I got a sharpi and a piece of paper and wrote on it "GO AWAY I am trying to sleep in so do not come in my room for any reason or wake me up of I will hurt you!" reason I am pissed as shit and broken down.... yeah right now I am not asleep...
BECAUSE MY FUCKING SISTER HAS TO COME IN MY ROOM AND TAKE MY SHIT AND NOW THIS IS THE LAST FUCKING STRAW... SO I BITCH AT HER TO PUT IT BACK AND THAT I HAVE BEEEN TRYING FOR WEEKS TO HAVE ONE DAY OF SLEEPING IN WITHOUT ANYONE FUCKING WAKING ME UP BUT EVERYONE IN THIS DAMN HOUSE SUCKS AT LIFE AND I HATE THEM!!!! THIS ISN'T A FUCKING FAMILY I HAVE SEEN PEOPLES FAMILYS AND WHEN I GO TO PEOPLES HOUSES I SEE THOSE PICTURES OF SIBLINGS HUGGING AND LAUGING THAT ARE ALL OVER THE HOUSE AND STORY TIME WHERE I HEARD STORIES OF FUNNY TIMES AND EMBARRESING TIMES AND TWO SIBLINGS HANGING OUT AND GETTING ALONG!!!!
DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT
I ABSOLUTLY GIVE IT UP... ON MY KNEES AND I'M NOT GETTING UP TO BE KNOCKED BACK DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
em |
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